The other night my ex best friend that lived in my house for 15 months and screwed over my family and hurt me badly - he drunk called me. Talking to me for the first time since he fucked over my family.
He told me he needs me and can’t live without me.
I then broke down, balled my eyes out. Drank half a bottle of vodka and then washed that down with whiskey.
I then cut my thigh so badly I had to bandage it up and the bandage was soaked the next day.
I haven’t really cut since though.. It’s 2 days later..
That’s improvement.
I need to see a psychologist or something. Obs not okay…
What do you think?
I just want everything to be okay. I just love everyone and I want it to work out. They’re all my family. But I don’t think they’re eachother’s. Fuck.
Just walked into my little sisters room and found a tin of speed…
I can’t tell anyone because she’s already so close to being kicked out and now my hands smell like shit.
Should I flush it down the toilet or pretend it never happened?!
